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Monday, October 2, 2023

FanX 2023: John Rhys-Davies recalls working with the Tabernacle Choir


One of the true unexpected delights of FanX Salt Lake Comic Convention 2023 was the opportunity to interview acclaimed actor John Rhys-Davies, who is best known for his roles in Lord of the Rings and Indiana Jones. He made himself available to speak to the media before the convention opened for its first day on September 21 and couldn't have been kinder to us. He even offered to take selfies with us when we were done chatting.

Because FanX took place in the midst of the SAG-AFTRA strike, we were not permitted to ask any of the actors about their work - past, present or future - which meant we couldn't ask him about Gimli or Sala or anything else he'd done in Hollywood, and we had to get a little creative with our questions.

One thing that was not off limits, however, was Rhys-Davies' experience performing with the Tabernacle Choir at Temple Square; he was a guest for the choir's Christmas concert in 2013. When we asked him to recall his time spent with the choir, he had some nice things to say.

Well, I knew of the Tabernacle Choir, really, from very early on. I’m a Welshman, and I spent time in a little village in Wales when my parents were out in Africa. The one choir that everyone knew of and admired was the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.

I did the Christmas show a number of years back. I expected to be impressed by the musicianship, and Mack [Wilberg] is […] probably the greatest choral authority in the world, I think, and I love him immensely and admire him immensely. The choir is superb – the musicianship, the range of their musical interests is enormous – and, as I’m a classical music fan, obviously, it was a match made in heaven, as far as I was concerned. 

But the welcome you get… I will be staying on for the service ["Music and the Spoken Word"] on Sunday [September 24], and I had the great privilege of attending the 95th birthday of your prophet, who stood up and made one of the most moving and articulate speeches that I think I’ve ever heard. Wonderful man. 

To an outsider, on first coming in, you’re a rather strange community, but the more I come, the more I see the real strengths of the community. The measure of friendliness to strangers is really unmatched. You’re a warm, welcoming, intelligent, rational, committed community, and I love it here.


Social media posts by some in attendance at "Music and the Spoken Word" can confirm that Rhys-Davies and fellow LOTR alum Andy Serkis were present to hear the Tabernacle Choir perform that Sunday, following the convention. So hey, how about that? Pretty cool.

For more FanX content, you know where to keep it.

Until next time.


Friday, January 1, 2021

5 Things That Saved Me During Quarantine

It goes without saying that 2020 was a weird, weird year. I, like many others, had a bunch of plans that just didn't work out due to the coronavirus pandemic, like a baseball trip to Chicago and a Santana/Earth, Wind & Fire concert. There were movies I wanted to see, things I wanted to do and a years-long streak of going to the gym that I would have preferred to keep intact. Instead, I found myself quarantined at home, often forbidden by the government from leaving - and when I could leave the house, it wasn't without a very stylish facemask.

However, there were actually a lot of really good things that took place in 2020 that - dare I say it? - wouldn't have happened under normal circumstances. It has warmed my cold, dead heart to see so many friends and acquaintances acknowledging on social media that, although 2020 pretty much sucked, there was also a whole lot to be thankful for. While I feel like I should reserve some of my more personal experiences for a much more private setting, I thought it would be fun to take a second and jot down a few of the fun things that blessed my life while stuck at home in 2020.


1. Video Games

First and foremost, I need to give an enormous shoutout to Animal Crossing, which has truly been a cornerstone in The A-Towns' quarantine experience.

I'll never forget the night of March 11, 2020, when the Utah Jazz vs. Oklahoma City Thunder game was postponed after it was determined that Rudy Gobert tested positive for COVID-19. That was an event that changed the world as we knew it. Professional sports seemed to be the first thing that shut down, but businesses and other public venues were soon to follow. Shortly thereafter, my place of employment sent everybody home and I was stuck inside for the foreseeable future. Thankfully, "Animal Crossing: New Horizons" was released for the Nintendo Switch on March 20, which, I think was, like, my first Friday at home. I hurried over to the nearest Target to pick up the new game and got to work on my island. I was chopping wood and catching fish for days on end, and I loved it. I played the original "Animal Crossing" growing up, so having a new next-gen version of the game was fun. Eventually, my wife, Miranda, took an interest in the game and I set her up with a character in the game.

After that, I didn't see her for three weeks.

Kidding, of course, but she did pick up on the game pretty quickly and, before we knew it, we were tag-teaming the island of Nookton and curating a place for our resident neighbors to enjoy.

By nature, "Animal Crossing" can become a somewhat tedious, chore-driven form of recreation, but with Miranda and me checking into the island and maintaining its upkeep on a nearly daily basis, it gave us something to talk about and something on which we could collaborate and work together. It has also brought us great joy that my sister received "ACNH" for Christmas, and I have had fun hopping online to visit her and give her tips over the past few days. Thanks, "Animal Crossing"!

Editor's note: Two other games we have loved playing together on the Switch were "Stardew Valley" and "FUSER."

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I also had plenty of opportunities to catch up on my Playstation backlog over the past nine months. I'm a man who enjoys great deals, and I'm also a long-time subscriber to the "Playstation Plus" program, which grants free games to users each month, so I've accumulated quite a wealth of video games over the years. The inability to go outdoors for entertainment left me at home with nothing but time on my hands, so I tried my best to make sure I got my money's worth out of all the Playstation games that have been sitting around, gathering dust.

Some of the games I enjoyed the most during quarantine were the "Kingdom Hearts" franchise, the freshly remastered "Tony Hawk's Pro Skater 1 + 2," "The Outer Worlds," "MLB The Show 20," "Marvel's Avengers" and "Red Dead Redemption 2," which I FINALLY had time to go back and play.

Being the OCD, completionist freak that I am, I also made an effort to fully complete as many games as I could. During the pandemic, I got the ever-elusive platinum trophy (or 100% completion) on the following Playstation games:
  • "LEGO Marvel Super Heroes 2"
  • "Monster Jam: Battlegrounds"
  • "Kingdom Hearts 0.2 Birth By Sleep: A Fragmentary Passage"
  • "Kingdom Hearts III"
  • "Assassin's Creed Syndicate"
  • "Far Cry 3: Classic Edition"
  • "AdVenture Capitalist"
  • "MLB The Show 20"
  • "WWE 2K20"
  • "Back to the Future: The Game"
  • "Batman: Arkham City"
  • "Fallout 3"
  • "Need For Speed"
  • "Astro's Playroom"
So yeah, video games kept me pretty busy, and I don't regret it at all. It's not like I could have gone outside to do something else instead. Oh, and despite all the crap I said about the PS5 launch (it was a disaster), Walmart and FedEx made me a very happy little nerd by delivering one to me on Christmas Eve, which was a modern day Christmas miracle, so I really can't complain too much.


2. DDP Yoga

Before COVID closed the country down, I had been going to the gym at least once a week for like 10 years. That's not an exaggeration; it's true. I know you probably couldn't tell by looking at me, but I tried my best to stay in shape. However, once gyms closed, I couldn't get out and pump iron anymore, which was a major bummer for me. I tried to cheat the system by jokingly driving to the gym, getting out, doing a couple push-ups and then checking in on the Swarm app, which I use to monitor how often I get out of the house, but Swarm eventually stopped counting "check-in streaks," despite my best efforts, so I stopped going altogether.

During the pandemic months, I have only gone back to the gym one time since they re-opened with safety precautions (allegedly) in place. Beside myself, I only saw one other patron (excluding employees) who was wearing a mask, so I guess I haven't felt totally safe to return until this virus is a bit more under control. Muscleheads are weirdos and generally cannot be trusted, in terms of personal hygiene and sanitation.

Without a gym to go to, I've had to get creative with my exercise. More often than not, this has meant that I turn to my old friend Diamond Dallas Page's "DDP Yoga" program for home fitness. Page, a 60-something WWE Hall of Famer, created his home workout regimen to help people lose weight and recover from sports injuries, but Miranda and I have used it as a suitable replacement for our VASA memberships, which we really should call in and put a freeze on before they continue to charge our monthly fees again.

DDP Yoga has helped us stay relatively "in-shape" while quarantined, and has been a nice activity for us a couple times a week after work. Admittedly, we haven't done it quite as well as we probably should have, but we've supplemented with occasional walks around our condominium parking lot and other miscellaneous exercises. Certainly, I'm no yoga expert, but I can absolutely tell an improvement in my balance and flexibility between the time I started working out with DDPY and now, so I'll count that as a win.

3. Streaming Services, Virtual Fan Experiences and Theater Trips

When Miranda and I first got married, I floated out the idea that, at some point, we should have a "movie month," where we watched one movie every night for an entire month. Sounded like fun at the time.

Now, nine months into a global pandemic, that doesn't sound as fun as I thought a year ago. During quarantine, I have literally kept track of everything that I watched. Granted, I didn't think we'd still be essentially locked down for this long, but I thought it would be interesting to see how much stuff I could watch until they sent me back to the office.

Hang on a second. Let me pull up my list.

It's 223 bullet points long, including movies, seasons of TV shows, documentaries and made-for-TV concerts. Two hundred and twenty three. Holy crap.

I've binge-watched a lot of great stuff, including catching up on some old series that I never finished; rewatching some stuff that Miranda had never seen; watching live shows like "The Masked Singer," "Survivor" and even "The Bachelorette." I've seen a handful of movies and shows edited for content, thanks to VidAngel. I've DVRed classic movies that were new to me, like "Saving Private Ryan," "Gladiator" and "Rebel Without a Cause." Like many of you, I thoroughly enjoyed Season 2 of "The Mandalorian" from the comfort of my living room. I'm a far more cultured, in-the-know person now, after spending so much time on the couch, and I most definitely got some great value out of my streaming subscriptions this year.

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I was a "virtual fan" a couple times during 2020! You may have seen me during a Utah Jazz playoff game or (briefly) on WWE programming ("Smackdown!" and "205 Live"). You may not have seen me on "The Masked Singer" because they totally botched their virtual fan experience, but hey, we did get to watch the first performance of "Group C" in Season 4. They were not good - clearly the worst of the three groups this season, but I guess it was kind of interesting, nevertheless.

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One aspect of entertainment that we can thank COVID-19 for is straight-to-streaming movie releases - something that seemed unfathomable a year ago. During the pandemic, my family and I have been treated to "Bill & Ted Face the Music," "Soul" and "Wonder Woman 1984," and we even forked over $30 to watch the decent-but-mostly-unnecessary "Mulan" remake on Disney+ one time.

One thing I really had fun with during the pandemic was being able to venture out a couple times to a real-life movie theater (it's a big building we used to go to when we wanted to eat popcorn and watch movies with our friends, back before the plague). When things gradually started to open back up, we found a theater about 30 minutes south of where we live that was showing old movies for super-cheap. They were even showing my all-time favorite movies, the "Back to the Future" trilogy, and Miranda mentioned that we should check it out since I'd never seen those movies on the big screen. Over the course of a few weeks, we saw all three movies, socially distanced from the half-dozen other people in the theater, for less than $10, total. It was amazing and definitely a highlight of 2020 for me.

On three other occasions, my family rented out a theater to watch a movie together. That's right - just me, my parents and my siblings' families, all alone to watch "How to Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World," "Ghostbusters" and "Hocus Pocus." The theaters took all the necessary precautions and treated us like VIPs the entire time. I can't thank the Megaplex and Cinemark theaters that gave us that thrice-in-a-lifetime experience. Again, that was something that we probably never would have done without the pandemic paving the way.

4. #GiveThanks

Arguably, my favorite week this year other than Christmas was the week leading up to Thanksgiving. When President Russell M. Nelson of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints issued a challenge for members of the church - and those of any other religion or background - to spread gratitude on their social media accounts, my Facebook and Instagram feeds were overcome with fun posts from those I follow. I got to see what made my friends and family happy, which provided a welcome break from the doom and gloom of election season, and helped me catch up with people I hadn't heard from in years. It also gave me a chance to reflect on the things that I was thankful for, from my family to my education and the many opportunities I've been given to work in journalism and with comic conventions. It was always fun to wake up each day and think about what I would be posting before the sun went down, and it made it so I actually looked forward to getting on my phone and mindlessly scrolling through what everyone else was talking about. For those of you who participated in the #GiveThanks challenge, thank you for making my life better during 2020.

5. Parenthood/Working From Home

Finally, I am thankful for parenthood - and no, I'm not talking about the TV show "Parenthood," although we did watch Season 1 a few weeks ago.

The year 2020 will always be one of my favorite years, if for no other reason than that it gave me and Miranda our first child, Stockton. Every day, I am still in awe that we have a little roommate - and that Miranda actually let me name him after my favorite basketball player. Stockton is such a perfect little boy. He is the best little buddy we ever could have asked for, and he has brought us such great happiness and joy. He is cuter and way funnier than we ever could have imagined, and we just love kissing his little cheeks. He is our snuggle bug, our movie and TV pal, and he loves staying up late with Daddy to play video games or read books. Speaking of reading books, we have spent quite a bit of time reading to Stockton lately, whether it has been a book by our old family friend John Cena or a story out of Stockton's brand new Marvel storybook. He is generally a very happy dude, and more than anything, he loves being held - by anyone!

Parenthood has been a wild ride for us so far. We're trying our best to learn what to do to take care of our baby, and I think we're actually doing ok! It has definitely taught me to put the child's needs first, above my own, which means:
  • I quite often can no longer play online video games that cannot be paused
  • Several times a week, I'm not going to bed until at least 1 AM
  • Stockton likes being held by someone who is standing up, to the dismay of my lower back and legs

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When Walmart first told us that we were going to have to work from home because of the virus, I honestly thought we'd be out of the office for maybe two weeks, then we'd be right back. Obviously, that didn't happen, and COVID-19 has turned into a much bigger deal than I thought it was. Working from home has been an interesting deal. The work I do can totally be done virtually, so that hasn't been bad, but I do miss the ability to walk up to somebody's face if they haven't responded to my Slack message for 45 minutes and make them give me an answer on the spot. I also miss the free snacks they gave us in the office. Other than that, being away from the office really hasn't been miserable.

Working from home has saved me, undoubtedly, hundreds of dollars on gas. Instead of filling up bi-weekly, now I refuel about once a month. There have been a couple weeks where I haven't even gone outside in days. That kind of sucks, but at least it's an inexpensive lifestyle.

Setting up shop on the couch or in my home office has given me the ability to turn on the TV (mostly as background noise) while I work, without interruption. It's a nice way to multi-task while still hitting my numbers and getting stuff done for my bosses.

The best thing of all is that I've been able to spend so much time with Miranda since March, and with Stockton since October. I got six weeks of paternity leave when he was first born, and they're allowing me six more to use any time within the first year of the child's life. I'll take those in a couple weeks, once Miranda has to go back to work. Right now, they're saying we will continue to work remotely until at least July 5, 2021. Of course, they'll play things by ear and adjust that date, if necessary, but it most likely means that I'll get to play Mr. Mom to Stockton for a few more months (simultaneously saving a ton of money that we would have had to spend on child care in a non-COVID world). My wallet thanks my employer, and Mr. Sam Walton, the veritable founder of the feast. We are incredibly thankful and count ourselves blessed that Miranda and I both were able to continue working throughout all the craziness 2020 threw our way.


No, 2020 was not even close to the year we all wanted. The holidays all fell on weekends, "twenty-twenty" was a nice round number, there were plenty of vision puns to be made, but COVID-19 wrecked us all and forced us into uncomfortable situations where we all had to make adjustments. No, things didn't magically revert back to normal at the stroke of midnight, early this morning. Sometimes, you just can't always get what you want.

But taking a page out of President Nelson's book and looking for the positive memories that were made along the way really goes to show that 2020 will go down as one of the most memorable stretches of our entire lives.

Here's hoping that we can do a bit more traveling, a lot more socializing and maybe even attend a couple sporting events and concerts in 2021.

Happy new year from everybody here at Signs of the Times!

Monday, September 3, 2018

LOST: The Power of Letting Go


"Holding on is believing that there’s only a past; letting go is knowing that there’s a future." - Daphne Rose Kingma

A major theme in Season 6 of "LOST" - and, arguably, the main theme of the series - is something that the main character, Jack Shephard, has a really tough time doing - letting go.

Throughout most of the first five seasons of the show, Jack is a "fixer." It's what he does. He fixes things. Or he tries to fix things. It's a characteristic that makes him incredibly stubborn. He knows what he wants to do and he tries to do it, regardless of his probability of success, the advice he receives from others and (sometimes) logic. Fixing things motivates Jack and makes him feel successful. Failure or inability to solve problems frustrates Jack, often causing him to resort to shouting matches (often involving Sawyer or Ben Linus), physical violence (often involving Sawyer or Ben Linus) or complete resignation (as seen during his time being held at the aquarium by the Others in Season 3) - even to the point of contemplating suicide (see the Season 3 finale, for instance). With these personality traits in mind, the shift in Jack's attitude during Season 6 is quite remarkable. We see the evolution of "Destiny Jack" - less a "Man of Science" and more a "Man of Faith" than what we grew accustomed to over the span of 100-plus episodes.

The first major event that impacts Jack's mindset occurs in Season 6 Episode 5 ("Lighthouse"). Hurley takes Jack on a secret mission from the Island's then-Protector, Jacob, which ends with the duo ascending to a lighthouse they'd never before seen. At the top of the lighthouse, Jack is instructed to rotate a large dial to a certain angle. While doing so, Jack catches a glimpse of his childhood home being reflected in one of many large mirrors. Although this freaks Jack out (he essentially accuses Jacob of being a stalker), it accomplishes the Protector's intended goal - to help Jack understand how important he is to the "big picture."

From that point on, Jack has a change in attitude. He starts to buy into the idea that he is playing an important role in the plan set forth by Jacob. Rather than fighting against that plan, like he did during Season 2 at The Hatch, Jack shows faith in it by considering the well-being of everyone else on the Island, instead of only thinking about himself. Jack begins to say and do things that are not indicative of his previous demeanor. Ultimately, this leads to Jack accepting the role of new Protector of the Island. As the Island begins to self-destruct, Jack must say goodbye to the other Survivors (and, most notably, Kate, who he says that he loves during the series finale). He chooses to stay with the Island, letting go of the plans he had in mind for the entire series. His willingness to play a more important, less selfish role cost him his own life but spared the lives of many others.

It's hard to let go of things that we are afraid of losing or scared of changing. But, if managed properly, letting go can lead to tremendous personal growth. Elder Richard G. Scott of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints once discussed the process of change as having two parts:
“Recognize that you’ll go through two transition periods. The first is the most difficult. You are caging the tiger that has controlled your life. It will shake the bars, growl, threaten, and cause you some disturbance. But I promise you that this period will pass. How long it takes will depend upon the severity of your transgression, the strength of your determination, and the help you seek from the Lord. But remember, as you stand firm, it will pass.
“The second period is not as intense. It is like being on ‘battle alert’ so that you can fend off any enemy attack. That, too, will pass, and you will feel more peace and will have increased control of your life. You will become free.”
That freedom, for the Survivors of Oceanic Flight 815, comes in Season 6's "Flash-Sideways," as they gradually realize that they - at some point - have all died. Once the characters have become aware of this, they begin to congregate together at the church. Jack, naturally, is the last to come to this conclusion, despite having several "Flashes of Truth" throughout the final episode. Jack is, at long last, convinced by Kate to enter through the back of the chapel, whereupon he sees the long-lost coffin of his father, Christian Shephard. Jack approaches it and places his hand upon the box. Jack is immediately flooded with memories of his life on the Island and is then approached from behind by Christian. The following conversation ensues:
JACK: Dad?
CHRISTIAN: Hello, Jack.
JACK: I don't understand. You died.
CHRISTIAN: Yeah. Yes, I did.
JACK: Then how are you here right now?
CHRISTIAN: How are you here? [Emphasis added.]
JACK: I died too...
CHRISTIAN: It's okay. It's okay. It's okay, son.
JACK: I love you, dad.
CHRISTIAN: I love you too, son.
JACK: You... Are you real?
CHRISTIAN: I should hope so. Yeah, I'm real, you're real, everything that's ever happened to you is real. All those people in the church... They're real, too.
JACK: They're all... They're all dead?
CHRISTIAN: Everyone dies sometime, kiddo. Some of them before you, some long after you.
JACK: But why are they all here now?
CHRISTIAN: Well there is no "now" here.
JACK: Where are we, dad?
CHRISTIAN: This is the place that you - that you all - made together, so that you could find one another. The most important part of your life, was the time that you spent with these people. That's why all of you are here. Nobody does it alone, Jack. You needed all of them, and they needed you.
JACK: For what?
CHRISTIAN: To remember... and to let go.
JACK: Kate... She said we were leaving.
CHRISTIAN: Not leaving, no. Moving on.
JACK: Where are we going?
CHRISTIAN: Let's go find out.
Jack needed to learn how to let go. He held on for as long as he could, but letting go and moving on was what finally allowed him to be free. There is a powerful lesson to be learned here. Over the course of the series, Jack was an influential (though sometimes divisive) leader for the Survivors. The fruits of his leadership brought him great joy and, at times, great sorrow and pain. By clinging onto the memories and proverbial baggage of his past, he prevented himself from moving on to the life that was waiting for him. How often are we guilty of doing the same? Whether we are stuck reliving our high school or college years, stuck holding onto a bitter grudge, constantly looking back on an old job that we loved or endlessly spinning the wheels in a bad relationship, letting go can provide us a path to a brighter future.

Certainly, it is normal to fear change or the loss of something we have been hanging onto for such a long time. Loss is practically inevitable in the process of change, so it is important for us to understand the difference between giving up and letting go. We're not quitting; we're moving on to something better.

Author Joseph Campbell said, "We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

In his talk "Progress Through Change," Elder Marvin J. Ashton said:
“How often in life do we set our own roots into the soil of life and become root-bound? We may treat ourselves too gently and defy anyone to disturb the soil or trim back our root system. Under these conditions we too must struggle to make progress. Oh, change is hard! Change can be rough. …
“We need not feel that we must forever be what we presently are. There is a tendency to think of change as the enemy. Many of us are suspect of change and will often fight and resist it before we have even discovered what the actual effects will be. When change is thought through carefully, it can produce the most rewarding and profound experiences in life. ...
“As opportunity for change reaches into our lives, as it always will, we must ask, ‘Where do I need development? What do I want out of life? Where do I want to go? How can I get there?’ Weighing alternatives very carefully is a much needed prerequisite as one plans changes. In God’s plan we are usually free to choose the changes we make in our lives and we are always free to choose how we will respond to the changes that come. ...
Yes, there is pain in change, but there is also great satisfaction in recognizing that progress is being achieved. Life is a series of hills and valleys and often the best growth comes in the valleys.” [Emphasis added.]
One of the beautiful things about the final moments of the "LOST" finale is that it shows us that Jack and the other Survivors didn't have to completely abandon their past. That's not what this concept is asking us to do. Just let go of anything that's dragging you down or holding you back. Rather than dwelling in the past (for better or worse), the Survivors of Oceanic 815 embraced the best parts of their lives and cultivated those experiences into "a place where [they could] be with the ones [they] love, and not have to ever think about [the] Island again," as Desmond explained in the finale.

We teared up as Jack and Locke finally figured things out, culminating in Jack healing John's paralysis. We watched Ben and Locke forgive each other outside of the church for their terrible relationship on the Island. And, finally, we saw the joyous gathering of Survivors in the chapel as the series drew to a close. After 121 hours of cliffhangers and unhappy endings, we got an episode where there were smiles on everyone's faces as the screen went black. What a payoff, and what a profound message.

While searching for quotes about change, I stumbled across this one - and I hate when people quote "unknown authors" - but I liked this message, as it related to Jack's character progression in "The End":

"Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don't belong."

My advice to you, then, is to evaluate your lives, figure out if there is something you need to let go of and then use that change to get to where you belong. It's worth a shot, right?

As always,

Namaste... and good luck.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Never give up! Never surrender!

I got passed over for a promotion at work today. It was a writing position. Right up my alley. I defy them to find anyone more qualified for a writing position than I am. Yet they decided not to hire me.

This isn't the first time I've been passed over for a writing job. I've applied for those types of jobs all over the place over the past five years, including trying to get back to the Deseret News, where I feel I have proven my worth and my skills time and time again. This isn't the first time I've been passed over for a promotion at my current place of employment, either. I believe that I was certainly more than qualified for the other job, too, in their social media department.

This has been incredibly frustrating to me. They say that having a degree will open doors for you (not true). Likewise, they say that one door closes, another door opens (not always true). Why would I, with my abundance of relevant experience, my Bachelor's Degree in communications and my award-winning stint in professional writing, so constantly be overlooked? Similarly, why am I 30 years old and still absolutely single and alone? These are two pain points for me that I struggle with quite often. This was not the plan. I was supposed to be married years ago. I should probably have had like two kids at this point. I was supposed to have a solid career in journalism by now. This was not the way I pictured my life to go.

I don't think I'm an incompetent writer. Shakespeare I am not, but I don't think I'm terrible. I'm not a total loser. Ryan Gosling I am not, but I don't think I'm undateable. I'm certainly not the worst option out there. So why aren't things working out for me? What have I done to deserve this constant rejection?

An illustration


People occasionally tell me I should write a book. I appreciate the compliment, but I'm just not that kind of writer. I have never really written fiction, outside of any elementary school assignments. I remember writing a "Mission: Impossible"-type series in like fourth grade and I once attempted to create a science-fiction comicbook about me and some alien friends. I thought it would turn into a Nintendo 64 game at some point, but that didn't pan out. I think if I were to ever write a book, it would have to be a book about overcoming adversity because that's probably the only thing I feel like I know enough about to put together an actual "book." That, or Reality TV Mormons, as I am the world's leading expert on the matter.

Getting rejected so much sucks, don't get me wrong. But I do believe that it has taught me some valuable lessons about self-esteem and provided enough mental ammunition for me to keep trying when the times have been tough. Allow me to illustrate:

My entire department got laid off at Allstate, almost a year to this date. Facebook will remind me of the one-year anniversary any day now. There were a couple good things to come from that:
  • I didn't like working in insurance. Boom. Done. Escape route.
  • We were given a really good severance package. Boom. Done. Three-month paid vacation.
  • They gave us Cafe Rio after they told us that we were no longer employed. We all refused to eat it, out of bitterness, at first, but we eventually gave in. Boom. Done. Free lunch.
  • And they set us up with a free job hunting seminar. I can't remember what they called it. Something like an "employment transition workshop," I think.
I reluctantly went to the seminar (I didn't want to admit that I needed help finding a new job), but I'm glad that I did. It helped me realize that sometimes in life I am not the problem. That's not always a good or a healthy thing to think, because sometimes I probably am the problem. But in that case, getting laid off, I was not the problem. There was nothing that I, personally, could have done to prevent it.

Their words, not mine


I would hope that I was not the problem with this most recent failure in the workplace. I felt like I gave a really good interview for this writing position. I've been doing really well at my job recently, even being nominated by my peers and selected by management to fly out to our corporate headquarters in New Jersey next month. I was confident - yet humble, after getting turned down for the social media job that I thought they'd be stupid not to hire me for - so I went in with reasonably low expectations, but (let's be honest) I expected to get the job. I gave well thought-out responses, often prompting the interviewers to remark, "Great answer!" with the accompanying head bob and note-taking. I had wanted this particular job since I first heard about it, probably 6 months ago. I had always hoped that there would be another opening (or one like it) because, as I told them in the interview, it was in a position like this one where I could A) obtain the most personal growth and B) most help the company with my talents. I really wanted this job. Alas, they ended up choosing some girl neither I nor my supervisor had ever seen or heard of.

Here's the "constructive" feedback they gave me about my interview:
  • They thought that I could have given a better answer for one particular question they asked.
    • "Garbage," I say, because it was one of those questions where the interviewer is looking for a specific answer and they expect you to read their mind. I gave a good answer, I thought, and, when they told me what they had hoped that I would say, I agreed with them, told them that I understood why they'd say that and even gave them an example of their reasoning that I had mentioned in the episode of "Survivor" that I had watched the night before.
  • They didn't think I was passionate enough about the position.
    • "Inconceivable," I scream, because I remember at least twice during that interview when I told them that this was the job I had wanted for months. I told them that I hadn't applied for other jobs (that they pretty much hire anyone to do) because I always hoped they'd have another opening. I told them that I didn't care about a difference in pay or room to grow into a supervisor because that was what I wanted to be doing for our company.


Bouncing back: some words of encouragement


So I'm pretty upset, I'm pretty frustrated and I'm pretty disappointed. "Disrespected" was a word that came to mind earlier today. Now the question is: how do I bounce back from this? How do I keep my chin up and keep moving forward after being shut down in my two areas of expertise, knowing that, if they didn't hire me this time around, I may not ever be hired for these types of positions at this particular company?

Start looking for another job.

Yeah, maybe.

But in the meantime, what words of comfort can I use to console myself and to remind myself that, in this case (I am pretty sure), I am not the problem?

I have always loved this quote by Marvin J. Ashton, which he gave in a talk to single members of the Church in 1992:
Set your goals—without goals you can’t measure your progress. But don’t become frustrated if the victories don’t come quickly or easily. Remind yourself that striving can be more important than arriving. If you are striving for excellence—if you are trying your best day by day with the wisest use of your time and energy to reach realistic goals—you are a success, and you can feel proud of your accomplishments. [Italics added]
I also really appreciated a story by Dallin H. Oaks that I read in a new(ish) book compiled for young adults called We're With You. Elder Oaks talks about how he had a plan for his life that didn't quite end up the way he envisioned. He talks about how he had planned to serve a mission, which he couldn't because he was called away to war. He came home and got married, then figured that he and his wife would serve a mission later in life. That didn't happen as planned either because he was appointed as a Supreme Court Justice. He planned to serve there for 20 years or so and then serve a couples mission, but he was called to be a general authority just four years into that career. Then, suddenly, his wife passed away, which, of course was not something he had foreseen. He later remarried and is currently surviving (for life) as an Apostle. Says Elder Oaks:
How fundamentally different my life is than I had sought to plan! My professional life has changed. My personal life has changed. But the commitment I made to the Lord - to put Him first in my life and to be ready for whatever He would have me do - has carried me through these changes of eternal importance.
And another, just a few pages later, from D. Todd Christopherson:
The very details of our lives are of importance to God. He cares about all of it - words, works, even thoughts. His interest and love are infinite in this way, and He will respond to our hopes and pleadings and help us in everything, including matters that seem unimportant or insignificant to others or even to ourselves.
That's some good stuff.

Peter-peter-peter-peter... Quincy-quincy-quincy-quincy...


Anyway, I don't know why I felt like blogging about my little disappointment today. I don't know why I felt like sharing these personal thoughts with you people, most of whom barely even talk to me on a weekly basis. But I hope that if there is somebody else out there that is struggling with self-worth or needs a little motivation that you can take it from me - that you do matter, that you are awesome and that you can do it! It might not happen today. It might not happen tomorrow. It might not happen for seven years or maybe even longer. But don't give up on yourself. Hang in there. In the immortal words of Peter Quincy Taggart, "Never give up! Never surrender!"


One of these days, somebody is going to recognize my greatness, and that will be a glorious day. A glorious day, indeed. But until then, I think I'll go make myself a delicious Totino's pizza. Excuse me.

TO BE CONTINUED

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Survivor's Scot Pollard: the Reality TV Mormon debate


Former NBA player and champion Scot Pollard is an interesting dude. There's no doubt about that. Run a quick Google image search for him and you'll quickly come to understand. At a glance, the guy is pretty far "out there," as far as his personality and lifestyle are concerned. But here's a little known fact - Pollard was born into a Mormon family in Murray, Utah. Yes, it's true. Scot Pollard was raised Mormon.

Now, that term, "raised Mormon," is practically synonymous with inactivity in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Basically, the person was born into a religious family, then grew up and made their own decisions, leaving the church in the rear-view mirror. ("Dancing with the Stars" hot shots Derek and Julianne Hough are prime examples of this pattern.) For a few years now, I've known that Pollard was pretty openly ex-Mormon and anybody familiar with his NBA career should have realized that the guy doesn't really have any type of connection with the church anymore.

With this in mind, when Pollard was announced as a contestant for Season 32 of "Survivor," I immediately decided that I wouldn't include him on my world-famous list of Reality TV Mormons. However, I was quite surprised this past week when Mormonism came up in a conversation during the eighth episode of the season. Unexpectedly, Pollard did not deny being a member of the church. Here is a transcription of the conversation, which also included contestants Nick Maiorano, Julia Sokolowski and Debbie Wanner:

Nick: "There's something I want to ask you, Scot. Where does your mom live?"
Scot: "My mom lives in Utah. She's in an assisted living. She's got health issues, so... She's only 75. She's got a rare disease. It's basically the inverse of ALS."
Julia: "Is your father alive?"
Scot: "No, my dad died when I was 16."
Nick: "So, are you religious? Are you Mormon?"
Scot: "I haven't been to church since I was a kid - well, 17, 18 years old - but my whole world has to do with my family, and that has everything to do with the Mormon religion."
Debbie: "I think that's wonderful."
Scot: "That was one of the advantages. That's why I take care of my whole family. We were all poor. ... My brothers chose religion and family, and I chose the NBA. They struggle financially, so I..."
Debbie: "So you would like to help them even more."
Scot: "That's why I'm here."
Debbie: "Good for you, Scot. That's very noble."

Interesting, right? So what do you think? Does that conversation qualify Pollard as one of my Reality TV Mormons? Let me know in the comments section below!

"Survivor: Kaôh Rōng" airs on CBS, Wednesday nights at 7 p.m., Mountain Time. Pollard is currently one of the final nine contestants vying for the million-dollar grand prize.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

LDS musician Alex Boyé thrills judges on 'America's Got Talent'

Mormon musician Alex Boyé appeared on the 10th season of NBC’s hit variety show “America’s Got Talent” on Tuesday night, impressing all four judges and advancing to the second round of auditions.

Boyé, a British singer-songwriter known for his flamboyant African style of music, is a convert to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and a former member of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir. In recent years, he has become a YouTube sensation with his popular covers of songs like Disney’s “Let It Go” and Mark Ronson’s “Uptown Funk.”

On Tuesday night’s episode, Boyé performed his unique rendition of Taylor Swift’s “Shake It Off” with his band, Changing Lanes Express, in front of a packed ballroom audience.  Boyé’s energy and enthusiasm quickly got the attention of the show’s four judges: Howie Mandel, Melanie “Mel B” Brown, Heidi Klum and Howard Stern.

Following the adrenaline-infused audition, Mandel kicked off the judges feedback with high praise. “I’ve got to be honest with you - in my six years here, this is my favorite music act ever. It really is!”
“That definitely woke everybody up,” Brown added. “You filled the whole room with your excitement and energy. Thank you for auditioning today. That was brilliant!”

“It was contagious,” Klum said. “You were rocking out on stage. It was awesome. … You guys are talented and so much fun.”

Finally, Stern said, “I could watch you all day. You’re terrific.”

The judges’ voting was unanimous, capped off by “an enthusiastic yes” from Stern, who later commented, “They’ve got a great sound. I’m very excited about them.”

An emotional Boyé reflected on the moment by telling host Nick Cannon, “When you’re on the older side of things, you start thinking that maybe it’s not going to happen. And then you have a moment like this – it just opens up opportunities again. It’s priceless. It’s been an honor.”

Boyé and his band will get a chance to showcase their talent in front of even more viewers as “America’s Got Talent” continues to air on NBC Tuesday nights this summer at 7:00 p.m., Mountain Time.

Watch Boyé's performance below:


Along with Boyé, other AGT contestants with ties to Utah and the LDS Church include now-world-famous violinist Lindsey Stirling (2010), Morgan County’s Fab Five clogging troupe (2009), and, most recently, musicians Josh Wright and Lexi Walker (2014).

For more information about Mormons on reality TV, click here to see the world’s most comprehensive list.

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

#BroCSeminary: The Year in Review

I was recently bored, so what did I do?
I wrote down this poem: The Year in Review.
We’ve learned so much stuff since way back in September
So it’s time for us now to look back and remember.

It began in the year of our Lord 1820,
Joseph Smith History
With preachers, religions and churches aplenty.
The doctrine of Christ they twisted, abused
And it left all the people dazed and confused.
Along came a boy. His friends called him Joe.
Which church was true? He wanted to know.
He’d gone to the meetings and heard all the claims.
So he got out his Bible and opened to James.
The question was tough. His brain was quite racked.
So he asked Heav’nly Father for the wisdom he lacked.
But what to do next? Through his options he wove.
And at length he decided to head to the Grove.

D&C 10
In prayer he knelt down and the Devil he fought
As he held on for dear life – and the answer he sought.
When, at last, through the air came a pillar of light.
It was nice, it was warm and exceedingly bright.
“Joseph, this is my Son,” said the Father. “Hear Him!”
The young boy’s joy was full – yea, filled to the brim.
From humble beginnings came the latter-day church.
The truth was restored, pulled out of the lurch.
A new book of scripture, as sent from above,
Is a witness to us of our dear Savior’s love.
And then Martin Harris, on a day without prudence,
Misplaced all his pages (got LOST like my students).

Avoiding the obstacle, Joseph was blessed.
He continued translation ‘cause Father knew best.
Millions of copies have been sold to this day.
It’s the best book on earth and it won’t go away.
In the words of Moroni, the angel that flew,
You can pray to find out if the Church is still true.
The blessing! The gift! Modern-day revelation!
The Church started growing and filling the nation.

D&C 20
God’s Army, the missionaries, knock on each door
Thanks in large part to D&C 4.
John the Baptist at the river was seen
As he brought back the Priesthood in Section 13.
If you want to convert, here’s a word to the wise:
Find a man with the power to correctly baptize.
Section 20 came later, if anyone cares
To find duties of deacons or sacrament prayers.
New prophets, apostles, patriarchs, seers.
No more apostasy –it’s news to our ears!

As time went on, the Church grew by additions
D&C 30-40
Of the converts brought in when these guys went on missions:
Pratt, Peterson, Thayre and Sweet
And a whole lot of others that we didn’t meet.
They went on to be leaders and general authorities –
It’s all there to be read in the 30s and 40s.
But as the Saints grew, there was much to be taught –
Like who can get revelation and, of course, who cannot.
At this time came the first of the Saints’ endless struggles,
Imposed by newspapers and non-magic Muggles.
It was tough for the members to put up with the sinning,
And sadly, for them, this was just the beginning.

D&C 76 and 110
Through new revelation, they were asked to expand
To Ohio, where Joseph acquired more land.
Made a new home in Kirtland, a famous Church city.
…I haven’t been there, but I hear that it’s pretty.
The Word of Wisdom tells us not to do drugs.
Instead, it’s hot chocolate filling our mugs.
The temple in Kirtland was a happenin’ place.
The Redeemer appeared and they spoke face-to-face.
Elijah, Elias and Moses brought keys
To fulfill old school prophecies. The Savior was pleased.
Their faith was strengthened, the Saints were devout,
But the times got too hard and they had to move out.

They were run from the town and they left in a hurry
To join all their friends down in Jackson, Missouri.
D&C 101
Zion’s Camp wasn’t easy; it was quite the test.
The prophet returned and he lived in Far West.
He preached the doctrine and the members learned
The will of the Lord, as they all were concerned.
But their new home was not much more fun than the last.
The people were hassled. It wasn’t a blast.
The Saints were afflicted and tortured by mobs
Who burned down their houses and ruined their jobs.
Indeed, you could say these perilous times.
(No, I’m not getting tired. Got plenty more rhymes.)

Then things got extreme; even more they were tested
D&C 121 and 122
As the prophet was falsely, unjustly arrested.
They locked him away in Liberty Jail
In small, dark, cold room without any bail.
He prayed to the Lord, asking what he should do.
See Sections 121 and 122.
In the worst of conditions, Joseph Smith persevered.
It’s for reasons like this he’s so widely revered.
Then they moved to Nauvoo – the beautiful place.
They learned more of the Savior, His mercy and grace.
With their shoulders to the wheel and no duties to shirk,
The Saints built a temple and did lots of work.

D&C 135
The oppression grew harder, the trials more heated.
Governor Boggs wanted each of the Mormons defeated.
An order was passed so the Saints they could kill.
Seventeen members died in a fight at Haun’s Mill.
They captured the prophet; like a lamb he would die.
They marched him to Carthage; it made people cry.
His whole family knew he would never come back.
A mob rushed the prison, all painted in black.
The good men read scriptures; Joseph turned down the leaf.
They sang “A Poor Wayfaring Man of Grief.”
It was quickly all over. The martyrs were dead,
Wrote John Taylor – he survived and rolled under the bed.

“Shall we not go on in so great a cause?”
The work kept on rolling without stopping to pause.
Joseph was gone, but the Church was still there,
Now led by a man with long, beautiful hair.
The man’s name was Brigham. He was chosen by God.
When he spoke, Saints saw Joseph, which was kind of odd.
But it helped them to know that the mantle had shifted.
The cloud of confusion from thenceforth was lifted.
“Revelation continues!” were the shouts in the streets,
Then they gathered their wagons in groups just like fleets.
“Trust Brigham,” they said. “For he knows what is best!”
So they packed their belongings and headed out west.

The journey was rough, but they sang as they walked.
When they saw all the snowstorms, they were certainly shocked.
The furthest they got was the Iowa borders
And they stopped and took refuge at old Winter Quarters.
Crossing the Sweetwater River
When the weather got better, they resumed in the spring.
“Come, Come, Ye Saints,” is a song we still sing.
But the hardships continued – they ran out of food.
The Donners got hungry and it ruined the mood.
At the Sweetwater River, Companies Martin and Willie
Were saved by three boys, unafraid to be chilly.
On the strength of these men, the pioneers rallied
And they finally made it to the Great Salt Lake Valley.

Official Declaration #1
“This is the place,” Brigham Young said.
“Drive on,” he encouraged as he got back in bed.
They had made it at last with nary a hater
(But they don’t get a temple ‘til 40 years later).
The desert was empty, they had plenty of room.
They planted their roots and the gospel did bloom.
It was here they could stay for the rest of their lives.
Wilford Woodruff announced there’d be no plural wives.
Through the decades the prophets their legacies left.
Section 138 came from Smith, Joseph F.
Then in the ‘70s, our parents remember
The blessings of the Priesthood went to each worthy member.


2015
We’ve got Saints to the left and Saints to the right.
We’re spanning the globe with nobody to fight.
We’ve got Saints clear from Texas on up to Wisconsin
And today we are led by Thomas S. Monson.
The Church is great. The Church is cool.
You can have lots of fun without breaking a rule.
Looking back on this year, we learned all the church history.
What will you do next? Not a clue. What a mystery!
Can you believe it, dear students? The school year is done.
I know it was crazy, but I hope you had fun.

THE END.





Wednesday, February 11, 2015

LOST Blog 3: LOST and Religion


There are many things I like about LOST. I like the characters. I like the drama. I like the cliffhangers. I even like the crazy time travel stuff. But, as the series progressed, I began to notice something else I liked about LOST: all the religious symbolism.

Religious symbolism, you say? Oh yeah. There were nods to religion (some more subtle than others) all throughout the series, but things got really interesting in Season 6. While I initially noticed some of the analogies when I watched the series live back in 2010, I decided to write down all of the things I noticed as I re-watched each season a few months ago. As I finished in late December, I had myself a page full of references that I'm going to try to make conversational sense of right now. Disclaimer: This list is definitely not all-inclusive and I probably left out (and/or missed) a bunch of things. Ahem. (Oh, major spoilers to follow, by the way.)

Let my people go!


One of the most interesting nods to religion that I found came in the final episode of Season 3 as Jack led an exodus to the radio tower that the Israelites would have been proud of. In fact, Naomi even refers to Jack as "Moses" at one point. What I found even more interesting was that in that same sequence, two men in Jack's group can be seen in the background carrying luggage that looks vaguely akin to the Indiana Jones version of the Ark of the Covenant.

In Season 5, John Locke - or, rather, the Man in Black in the form of John Locke - leads his own exodus, this time leading a group of people to visit (and kill) the Island's Protector, Jacob. Similar to Jack's exodus, there are also men carrying an "Ark of the Covenant," which ends up being the real John Locke, lying dead in a gigantic metal casket. During this excursion, Ben Linus, in a mixture of awe and jealousy, refers to "Locke" as "Moses."

Speak softly and carry a Bible stick


Although his time on the show was somewhat short-lived, Mr. Eko was LOST's most openly religious character. After escaping a troubled childhood, Mr. Eko adopted a life of faith and repentance, characterized by his walking staff, which he occasionally carved Bible scriptures into. While on the Island, Eko often voiced his beliefs to his fellow Survivors, and at one point attempted to recruit Charlie to help him build a church. He also felt strongly about baptism. While his views on infant baptism don't mesh with my own convictions as a Mormon, whatsoever, I do respect the fact that Eko was urgently concerned about the salvation of his fellow men.

Though he never lived to see it, Eko's example did ultimately play somewhat into the "conversion" of John Locke, who, himself, was a man of faith (though he placed his faith in the Island and not necessarily in God). Locke, who mistreated Mr. Eko during one fateful encounter in the Hatch, became upset with himself after learning of Eko's smoky demise. At the time, Locke was a very confused man and was in search of answers to many important questions. He stumbled across Eko's Bible stick and read one of the verses that had been etched into the wood: "Lift up your eyes and look north." While it is uncertain what prompted Eko to carve Genesis 13:14 into his staff, the scripture inspired Locke to head to the northern part of the Island, where he eventually discovered the Others' village and barracks.

It is also of note that Mr. Eko's brother, who basically scammed his way into religion as a profession, crashed on the Island in a plane full of Virgin Mary statuettes. Of course, those porcelain statues were filled with heroin and kind of became the bane of Charlie Pace's tragic existence, but if we're talking about religious symbols in LOST, that's a pretty recognizable one.

Man of Science, Man of Faith


Speaking of John Locke, that was one curious dude. Locke, the "Man of Faith," came to the Island as a cripple. An unfortunate scuffle with his scumbag father left the poor guy paralyzed from the waist down, but, miraculously, he was healed as soon as he landed on the Island. Arguably, more good things happens to John Locke on the Island than for anyone else on the entire show. He loves it there. He has some sort of connection with the Island that he calls "beautiful." He regains feeling in his legs and can finally walk again, he comes face-to-face with the Smoke Monster and lives to tell the tale, and he achieves a level of leadership that he never got a whiff of back home.

But life on the Island doesn't always come up roses for Locke, who also struggles tremendously to receive what I suppose could be considered "personal revelation." The man is in a constant search for meaning in his life and, from time to time, hits an occasional dead end. None of Locke's on-Island struggles are more profound nor consequential than the night where he is brought to his knees, in tears at the Hatch. In pure desperation, Locke pleads with the Island, essentially praying to be shown some sort of sign - at which precise moment a light comes beaming up from the window in the buried Hatch door. This is a turning point for Locke, who takes it to mean that he does have a purpose and that he actually is important in the grand scheme of things. In the end, this ends up being (probably) a coincidence (Locke later jokes that it was probably Desmond getting up to go to the bathroom), but for Locke's overall arc in the show, this moment of supposed revelation is life-changing.

On the opposite end of the spectrum from Locke is Jack Shephard - the "Man of Science." Jack refuses to believe in any kind of destiny for a majority of the series. In the episode entitled "316," Ben references Doubting Thomas while he tries to convince Jack to return to the Island. At the end of that episode, Jack reads Jeremy Bentham's suicide note, which says, "Jack, I wish you had believed me. JL." Jack is ultimately convinced that everything bad that happens on and off the Island happens because he and the Oceanic Six left in the first place, which drastically shifts his attitude about faith and destiny. Toward the end of the series - especially in Season 6's "side-flashes," Jack replaces Locke as the "Man of Faith" and is portrayed as a much optimistic version of his previous self.

More scriptural references


Another scriptural reference is found after Jack has a conversation with Jacob during Season 6. When Jack returns to the rest of the Survivors, Sawyer asks him to come down from the mountain and tell them what the Burning Bush had to say. This, of course, is another allusion to the Old Testament, when Moses spoke with God and received instruction through a Burning Bush.

A reference to Original Sin and Adam's Transgression is made in Season 6 ("What They Died For") when Sawyer asks Jacob why the Survivors of Oceanic 815 were punished for his mistake. Jacob responds by pointing out that the Survivors were all living unhappy lives before they came to the Island. They were all flawed, which was why they were all chosen. They were like Jacob - alone and looking for something they couldn't find.

Speaking of Adam, let us not forget that the rotted, decaying corpses of the Man in Black and his mother are referred to by the Survivors as "Adam and Eve."

There are some very obvious "afterlife" overtones from the very first episodes of LOST (which I'll get to later), but none of these hints are more obvious than when Locke II (Locke in the Season 6 "side-flashes") mentions his belief in the afterlife when Oceanic Airlines loses Christian Shephard's casket. In the same episode ("LAX, Parts 1 & 2"), Locke II tells Jack II that his condition (paralysis) is irreversible, to which Jack, the born-again "Man of Faith," responds that "nothing is irreversible." This conversation would ultimately lead to Jack II repairing Locke II's spine, allowing him to walk again.

Consider the Source


The Heart of the Island is an interesting symbol. While it is difficult to describe the Heart of the Island in words, I suppose you could say that it is a central location on the Island from which a great amount of electromagentic energy and extremely radiant light emanates. Jacob's mother considered it the source of life, death and rebirth. The Dharma Initiative considered it a mysterious source of extreme power that could, if handled improperly, destroy the entire world.

Rather than focusing on its negative properties, I always thought the image of light shooting out of the Heart of the Island was a powerful one. Similarly, light is a common symbol in religion, so it was easy for me to find connections here. Jacob's mother tells him that every living being possesses a portion of the light, just like Christians (and Mormons, particularly) believe that each living being possesses a portion of the Light of Christ or Holy Ghost.

But just as Satan uses clever counterfeits to distort the work of God, the Man in Black is able to confuse Ben Linus for a great deal of his time on the Island. During the middle of the series, Ben Linus occasionally goes to a secret room below his house in "Otherton" to supposedly summon the Smoke Monster to do his bidding. This hidden chamber contains a murky puddle of water that Ben must unplug in order to communicate with the Smoke Monster. After unclogging the drain, Ben speaks into the hole and tells the Monster where to go. (If you recall, at one point, Ben tells the Monster to meet him out front, but, to his surprise and probable disappointment, "John Locke" walks out of the jungle instead of the Smoke Monster. Little did he know that the man who stood before him was the Smoke Monster...) Later in the series, Ben realizes that he was not summoning the Smoke Monster, after all; the Monster was summoning him. Furthermore, we don't realize this until Season 6 - and not a big deal is made of it, either - that Ben's summoning spot looks very similar to the Heart of the Island, which can also be unclogged by removing a plug from the center of a pool of water. We see this in the world today as confused individuals often have pieces of the truth - or, at least, something that partially resembles the truth - are led astray due to their incorrect practices and beliefs.

Bullet points: Good and evil, fate, brothers and Shephards


- In the Book of Mormon, the prophet Lehi says "it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things" (2 Ne. 2:11). Apparently LOST's head writers were thinking along those same lines because the "good vs. evil" motif is probably the show's most obvious nod to religion. Black and white are popular visual symbols, as well. From backgammon to the clothes worn by Jacob and his brother, monochromatic elements are some of the most heavy-handed clues around.

- Another central plot line is the concept of fate or pre-destination. Several of the main characters, including Charlie, most prominently, believe that it is their fate to have crash-landed on the Island. John Locke, who begins pushing the button in the Hatch seemingly out of "blind faith," thinks the Island is a pretty swell place for a retirement home, as does Rose, both of whom had serious medical issues miraculously healed upon arrival. Walt also really likes the Island - he even burns the Survivors' raft to ensure that they don't find a way off of it. Others, meanwhile, like Jack, Sawyer and Juliet, to name a few, believe that the crash is not their destiny and actively pursue any means of getting back home. On the religious side of things, a fun conversation (with one clear, correct answer, mind you) that occasionally pops up in LDS culture is that of agency vs. pre-destination. Do our lives have pre-determined endings? Do our actions have real consequences or, no matter how hard we try, will we always, inevitably wind up at the same conclusion? In the end, the death of Jeremy Bentham was apparently enough to get Jack to believe that it was, in fact, his destiny to be on the Island, prompting the classic line, "We have to go back, Kate... WE HAVE TO GO BACK!!" An incredibly in-depth look at fate, destiny and free will can be found on Lostpedia, but I'm not going to get into that discussion any further at this time.

- Locke and Mr. Eko, who both, at times, consider the Hatch to be somewhat of a holy place, remove their shoes upon entering.

- Hurley, who was raised in a religious household, prays for help in starting the Dharma van in "Trisha Tanaka is Dead."

- Locke refers to Ben as a Pharisee in "The Man from Tallahassee."

- Aside from their comparatively similar names, am I the only one that thinks that the relationship between Jacob and his twin brother is very Jacob-and-Esau-esque? I don't know. Just a thought.

- Then, of course, there's the Shephard family. Kate Austin has a particularly hard time getting over that blatant symbolism. In a moment during the waning hours of the series, Desmond takes her to the church for Christian Shephard's funeral and Kate, realizing the obvious religious meaning behind the deceased man's name, exclaims, "Seriously? Christian Shephard?"

The ageless wonder


Let's talk about Richard Alpert. Richard, to me, is one of the most fascinating characters in the entire show. In his long-awaited flashback episode, "Ab Aeterno," Richard, who is depicted as being very religious before his time on the Island, accidentally kills a man. Richard takes the mistake very hard and his sin weighs heavily on his soul. He is sent to prison, where he spends time meditating and reading scripture before being sent away as a slave on the Black Rock.

Before he gets shipped off, a Catholic priest tells Richard that the devil will be waiting for him in hell. When the Black Rock runs into the tidal wave that causes its shipwreck, Richard peeks outside the ship and spots the Island's Statue, which he mistakenly believes to be "the devil." Once shipwrecked, the Smoke Monster attacks and kills every passenger on the Black Rock before sparing Richard. This traumatic event reinforces Richard's belief that Smoke Monster is the "devil" that the priest was referring to. Upon his arrival on the Island, Richard also sees a hallucination of his wife, Isabela, who tells him that they are all dead and are in hell. She also refers to the Smoke Monster as "the devil." This is a belief that Richard harbors for the rest of his life. At one point, he tries to convince the Survivors that they're trapped in some form of Purgatory.

Angels and demons


Not unlike our guy-lined buddy, Richardus, many viewers quickly jump to the conclusion that the Smoke Monster/Man in Black is "the devil" and Jacob is "god." Certainly, there are a ton of similarities and the whole black and white/good and evil aspect is there, so I can see why people make that assumption. Let's break down the arguments for each character:


Case: The Man in Black is "the devil"
  • The Man in Black practically offers the world to several characters with very little intention of keeping his promises.
  • The Man in Black uses tactics that are confusingly similar to Jacob's in order to convince people to do things.
  • The Man in Black often refers to people as "friend" while making false promises and deals.
  • The Man in Black offers Richard the option to change his mind after entering into a promise with Jacob.
  • The Man in Black manipulates people, giving them the illusion of free will.
  • The Man in Black makes Jacob promise not to tell their mother about the game they've been playing without her knowledge.
  • The Man in Black is a skilled liar.
  • The Man in Black does not have his own physical body.
  • He is referred to by Jacob as the embodiment of evil.
  • The Man in Black is extremely jealous of those who have the agency to do as they please - especially their ability to leave the Island.
  • After discovering the Light that emanated from the Heart of the Island, the Man in Black led men to it. These men had "interesting ideas about what to do with it."

Case: Jacob is "god"
  • Jacob does not want to force anyone to do what is right. He says that having to step in and remove their agency is "meaningless."
  • When speaking of his chamber in the shadow of the Statue, he tells Richard, "No one comes in unless I invite them in." Sounds like you better set up an interview for a recommend renewal ASAP.
  • The ritual involved in becoming the Protector of the Island somewhat mirrors the sacrament or communion.
  • Jacob is "not like" the Man in Black. He does not know how to lie.
  • For the most part, Jacob is an unseen leader. The Dharma Initiative sees Jacob as an Island deity worshipped by the Hostiles.
  • Jacob has the power to do miracles. For example, Richard's agelessness is a gift from Jacob and John Locke is brought back to life by Jacob after seemingly falling to his death. Also, he no longer appears to age and can teleport himself anywhere in the entire world.
  • Jacob is a vigilant figure who oversees the actions of many people. Take a look at his Lighthouse, for crying out loud.
  • Jacob visited - and touched - those he watched over at times when they felt most alone and vulnerable.
  • Jacob believes that there is good in all men and wants them to become like him.

However... I'm not sold on the idea that Jacob is a Christlike character - because he's not. He says it himself: he's flawed - and we definitely get to see some of those imperfections and mistakes in his personality and actions during his brief time on screen. He's a mostly benevolent, semi-Messianic figure to a large degree, sure, but I would never go so far as to compare him to the capital-G God or Jesus Christ. Here's why:

  • While Jacob generally appears as a pretty mellow, contemplative guy, the first few times we actually get to see him, it's apparent that he started out as an emotional, jealous dude. Jacob's temper gets the better of him a couple times early on in life. I mean, he murders his own brother, for goodness' sake. He also engages in fisticuffs and nearly drowns Richard Alpert the first time they meet. He is, at one point, described as "unforgiving" - a characteristic certainly unbecoming of someone that many compare to the Savior of the World.
  • Eventually, Jacob's temper subsides and he turns into the mild-mannered, soft-spoken man we often see him as in Season 6. But, to me, it seems like he has toned down his emotions so much that he sometimes comes off as being insincere. His infamous question to Ben Linus shortly before his untimely assassination stands out more than anything. Ben, frustrated to no end about his mistreatment as an authoritative figure on the Island, asks Jacob, "What about me?" Jacob, straight-faced, responds, "What about you?" This exchange pushes Ben over the proverbial edge and he stabs Jacob to death. Similar indifference can be noted as Jacob visits several of the Candidates off-Island. He is often heard saying "I'm sorry" to the downtrodden future passengers of Oceanic 815, but his words lack any tangible feeling. Sure, Jacob says that he cares for these people, but it sometimes seems like he's just a guy who has grown tired of his job and is determined to find a replacement so he can call it a day and head home. Surely, we sometimes think that God has forsaken us or that he doesn't much care about our present circumstances. Surely, God sometimes puts us through challenges, difficulties and tribulations. But God surely cares for his children, regardless of what decisions and mistakes we have made. Jacob never particularly struck me as this type of "god." I'd bet you money that the actual God would never respond with a humdinger like "What about you?" (The Doctrine and Covenants is full of people asking for their standing before God and he responded much more lovingly than that.)
  • Jacob is highly inaccessible to all but a very select few people on the Island, and even some of those who do have access to him find him vindictive and unapproachable at times.
  • I'm not saying it's true, but, as one TV blog suggests, Jacob says he's not the devil - and that's exactly what the devil would say.
  • Jacob is unable to absolve Richard of his sins so that he doesn't go to hell. Christ, on the other hand, selflessly atoned for the sins of everyone who would ever come to the earth.
  • Although Jacob's death has some ramifications for the Island and its inhabitants, the demise is surprisingly unceremonious and almost insignificant. One minute he was there, and then, suddenly, he wasn't. Life went on. In contrast, the death of Jesus Christ is arguably one of the most significant, well-known events in the history of the world.
  • Jacob's fascination with Candidates seems more like a game, a test or a hobby than anything else. There were apparently more than 240 Candidates, initially, although LOST only focuses on about six to 10 of them. The purpose of Jacob's hobby was to prove to the Man in Black that not all men were as corrupt as their mother said they were. But when a Candidate was not up to snuff, for whatever reason, or, say, became a mother like Kate and Sun, Jacob scratched them off of his list and moved along without them. The actual God has a purpose for each of us and would never discard anyone on a whim. Undeniably, there are requirements to get into Heaven and all of that, but those rules are clearly laid out for anyone to read and know and God is very forgiving of those who fall short.
  • Along those lines, Jacob says his plan is all about agency and free will, but, not unlike "The Adjustment Bureau," he makes a habit of nudging his Candidates in the direction he wants them to go, whether or not they realize it.

I figured I'd take my questions about Jacob to the source, himself, so when Mark Pellegrino came to Salt Lake Comic Con FanXperience a couple weeks ago, I made sure to take a second to ask him about the inspiration behind his character and his thoughts on the show's mythology. Here's what he had to say:
"I […] received direction very early on when I was doing Jacob – like, literally, the first day that we were filming – that, for me, was the in-road to that character and it was accidental. I was doing a scene – and I don’t even remember what scene it was, to be honest with you, but I remember the direction. Jack Bender, who was one of the executive producers on the show and directed many of them, said, ‘That’s it, Mark! That’s it: Jesus the Carpenter.’ So I always thought of Jacob as that down-to-earth, Messianic figure… that very identifiable figure where the god-like aspects of it were in the background and what came to the foreground was an empathy and understanding for the souls of other people. […] What instantly affected me on that – as an image of that – [were] the great, first three chapters of ‘The Master and Margarita,’ where it’s a scene between Jesus and Pilate that has always moved me very much because of Jesus’ accessibility, but also His power… So that was kind of my template that I worked from. I don’t know whether it showed or not, but that was kind of the idea. [Laughs]"
At length, I have come to a conclusion: Jacob is a Christ-like figure, but not always a Christlike character. Notice the hyphen. It's important. While Jacob is to be seen as a metaphor for Christ - a sympathetic (not always empathetic) leader whose purpose was to help others and lead them away from sin - he was not Christlike in his approach, often letting his emotions, anger and frustration play a part in his leadership. Overall, though, I think that Jacob, for as mysterious as he was during his short-lived time on-screen, was a good guy. I just think he's a little misunderstood.

The wine bottle


When I was watching LOST for the first time, the scene that really made me notice how much religious symbolism was involved in the plot was the "bottle and the cork" scene from "Ab Aeterno." Jacob is speaking with Richard Alpert on the beach and Richard, the skeptic that he is, has a few questions for the Protector of the Island.

In order to explain to Richard what, exactly, the Island is, Jacob holds up a bottle of wine. He asks Richard to think of the wine as what he keeps calling "hell." Jacob says there are many other names for it, as well - "malevolence, evil, darkness..." The wine, he explains, swirls around in the bottle because, if it wasn't kept in the bottle, it would spread. He then plugs a cork into the top of the bottle. The cork, Jacob says, is representative of the Island - the only thing keeping the darkness where it belongs. (At the end of the episode, Jacob gives the wine bottle to the Man in Black as a way to "pass the time"; the Man in Black smashes the bottle in a fit of anger.)

He goes on to say that the Man in Black believes that all men are corruptible because it is in their very nature to sin. Mormons refer to this as the "natural man," so, doctrinally speaking, LOST is on the right track here. It is then that Jacob explains his purpose: he brings people to the Island to prove the Man in Black wrong. "And when they get here," Jacob says, "their past doesn't matter." This line is a bit uncharacteristic of Jacob, who seems a little ruthless at times, but it's an interesting bit of dialogue, nonetheless.

What follows is an intriguing exchange where Richard inquires as to how many people Jacob had brought to the Island:
"Many," the Protector responds.
"Well, why didn't you help them?" Richard asks.
"Because I wanted them to help themselves... To know the difference between right and wrong without me having to tell them. It's all meaningless if I have to force them to do anything. Why should I have to step in?"
"If you don't, he [the Man in Black] will!"
After thinking for a moment, Jacob offers Richard a position as an intermediary between him and the people he brings to the Island. If Jacob can't step in, Richard can, instead. Perhaps it's a bit of a stretch, but this is somewhat reminiscent of the role of the Holy Ghost, who resides on the earth to help God's children make appropriate decisions since God and Jesus aren't always available to "step in." Again, that's probably a bit of a stretch, from a gospel standpoint, but kind of interesting to think about.

The church / The End

There are a lot of churches in LOST. Several of Mr. Eko's storylines revolve around churches, Sawyer's parents' funeral is at a church, Jack gives a eulogy for his father at a church, Desmond used to live at a monastery, Charlie confesses his sins at a church, Kate gets married at a church, the Others have a temple and, of course, Eloise Hawking's secret Dharma base, the Lamp Post is based in the back of a church in Los Angeles. See? Lots of churches. But no scenes involving places of worship are more poignant than that controversial ending in Season 6... While a deep discussion of The End will have to wait for another time, I've got to touch on it lightly while we're on the topic of religion.

As Season 6 draws to a close, the Survivors begin to arrive at the Lamp Post church one by one for Christian Shephard's funeral. Outside, an interesting conversation takes place between Ben and Hurley, where Hurley invites Ben to join them in the chapel. Mr. Linus refuses, saying that he is not ready to go yet and has a few things to wrap up before he can come in. While no extra clarification or context is given, I have always thought that this meant that Ben was not yet dead and either still had some sins to repent of or had a couple extra tasks to wrap up in mortality. This also leads me to the (correct) assumption that everyone else who does go inside is already dead. I believe that the "Survivors" were unable to "move on" until they came to the realization that they were already deceased. Whether that was in the plane crash or otherwise, that's totally different conversation.

At long last, Jack arrives at the church and heads in the back door, where he finds his father's coffin. When he touches the casket, his mind is immediately flooded with memories from the Island. Jack opens the box and finds it empty inside. Christian appears behind Jack and begins speaking with his son. During the conversation, Jack gradually comes to the realization that he, too, is dead. His arrival at the church, along with the other Survivors, is a representation of their entry to the long-awaited afterlife.

Christian explains to Jack, "There is no now here," which is fairly consistent with a popular theory about the concept of time in heaven. (For instance, Mormon doctrine teaches that one day in heaven is 1,000 years on earth. That's a long time.)

Papa Shephard then describes the church building as "a place that you [the Survivors] made together so that you could find one another." He continues, "The most important time of your life was the time that you spent with these people. That's why all of you are here. Nobody does it alone, Jack. You needed all of them and they needed you." Two points here:

  • Doctrine and Covenants 130:2 says "And that same sociality which exists among us here [on earth] will exist among us there [in heaven], only it will be coupled with eternal glory, which glory we do not now enjoy." Mormons believe that they will be able to live with God and their families (and their friends, I assume, too) if they live worthily in this life. When Jack realized that he was dead, he was immediately reunited with his father and the people who were most important to him.
  • Elder Russell M. Nelson of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles once taught that, while salvation is an individual matter, exaltation is a family matter. Jack couldn't make it to the church alone. He needed everyone else in order to get there. On the religious side of things, an individual can gain salvation alone (by keeping the commandments and remaining faithful to covenants), but exaltation in the Celestial Kingdom is only achieved through temple marriage and endurance to the end and cannot be obtained individually.

Conclusion


To put a nice, shiny bow on this behemoth of a blog, I cannot emphasize enough that these are just my thoughts. Obviously, LOST has absolutely nothing to do with gospel doctrine or, certainly not, the LDS Church. I simply thought it was interesting that glimpses of doctrinal truth were evident throughout the series. Although I would (probably) never quote or reference the show during Sunday School or sacrament meeting, I do think that my own, personal testimony of the gospel was at least slightly strengthened as I saw the things I referenced in this blog and said quietly to myself, "Hey, you know what? There's a little bit of truth to that!"

Anyway, what did YOU think? Am I totally crazy? Up in the night? Way off base? Is it completely wrong of me to even bring this discussion up? Or did you notice anything similar? I'd love to hear what you have to say in the comments section below or on Facebook or Twitter.

In the meantime, I leave you with this final clip, which will either make you feel a little nostalgic or really ticked off. Take your pick.


Namaste... and good luck.